try... THE COLORS!!

why?
everynight when I goign to bed, I feel this weird thing, that mixes all my body with my soul, making me sacred of turning out the lights, I just feel and empty space over my, inside myself.

Theres a whole new world full of colors, but I don't know why I keep prefering black, maybe because is a save color, that no one will desagre, everyone have something black, maybe my monsters hold me, whye my fear to the world doesn't go?

Been like this, is no easy, but trying to be normal is really masoquostic for me, in this society where everyone can find anything, like love, hapiness, a kiss, a hug, a smile, a hold hand, a partner... In my world, evry little thing is a constant struggle, cuz' what is harder in normal round, is impossible over here, that's way today I feel down, thinking... if maybe, people will see me as a person or see what I like and leave me...

Better keep quit... I can wake up from this dream, where perfection don't exist and the rules are follow by those who don't belive... just remember, smile at every color, cuz' theres a whole new expirience in eahc one!!!